The cosmos within.

So often we overlook the majesty and the magic that functions without a second thought or command. Our masterful, magical bodies.

30th May 2022

Yesterday I integrated and moved through lots of feelings I had towards my body.

Realising how long it has been since I had actually spoken to my body. When I asked her "What do you need?" she said LOVE! I felt such an overwhelming sense of gratitude but also fear and shame. One for having ignored her for so long and two for the Ness' that linger in my body.

The Ness' that struggled with an eating disorder, hurting herself, numbing herself, to feel something other than hopelessness, loneliness, sadness, anger.

I realised how much of these experiences my body simply continued to carry and hold for me. I felt so sad for ignoring my body - so I sang to her, poured love through my hands, held her, cried for her, cried with her. Held my most sacred parts, sowed together unimaginable wounds that kept bleeding me out. I see them now, clearly as day - I welcome them in, to be and to play with all the other Ness' who I have welcomed in.

I apologised for not knowing any better than to blame, hurt and curse my body - not truly realising how magnificent she truly is, we truly are.

Her systems, layers, functions, parts and movements that emulate entire ecosystems, planets, galaxies, universes inside me.

All come together to form the expression of creation within me. I am so blessed.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.