Trust fall with the Universe

So many moments of my life have been a culmination of experiences that lead me to a pivotal moment, a choice in time. Do I jump? or do I delay the jump?

Deep love and appreciation for this junction in time, this divergence of the path - I am faced with.

Every part of me craves certainty, comfort and stability but even I know that's not where I will find the growth and freedom I am looking for.

A life full of adventure and creative building! A life full of plant and herbal medicine and healing. A life with an opportunity to learn from my mistakes and not worry over items and things that have served me well but attachment to them, holds a dark space in my freedom.

Clear boundaries, clear love, clear expectations, considerations and heartful communications.

Community applied outside the bubble to lovers turned lovely friends, defacto parents turned lessons in friendship. Mentors turned mothers.

The ocean of the Universe awaits for me to throw my unbounded self into the embrace of her seas.

Knowing, trusting, having faith that she will catch me.

Thank you, thank you, Thank you.

Author's notes:

I wrote this poem during an incredibly transitional time in my life. Everything was ending and changing and the life I had spent so long building, felt like it was slipping through my fingers.

When I moved from the inner suburbs of Sydney to the Central Coast, NSW - I felt so much uncertainty and nervousness. A bubbling of butterflies that felt like they were fluttering at one point and sinking into the cavern of my chest at another. Taking the jump felt like something I had to do. I had just finished my three month residency at Govinda Valley and my lease was ending for my beautiful apartment atop a sushi shop in Leichhardt.

It feels easy to romanticise aspects of our lives that we are hesitant to leave behind. Ignoring the warts and the rampant cockroach problems that made us want to move on in the first place.

All the learnings from this chapter of my life on the Central Coast have felt like an incredible homecoming back unto myself. I have enjoyed the space to feel, to heal my inner wounds, to apply compassion to my selves who so desperately call for it, to create entire universes and worlds.

For this, I am incredibly grateful to Matthew and his family for opening up their home and their space to me and inviting me to be myself. I am grateful to my own family for empowering me to go on this journey of self awareness, understanding and compassion. A journey - I sure as heck signed up for when I decided to come to Earth.

This is my first of many blog posts and I am incredibly excited to see how this medium continues to facilitate the inner blooming and blossoming of my beings on a more outward scale. I am excited and nervous to share more of myself!